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Sep. 11th, 2009 @ 09:05 pm If you never take the first step, you cannot go too far...
Emotion:: anxiousanxious
Sound:: High Places - Jump In
So, it has come to my attention that I spend far too much time updating Facebook and not nearly enough time writing in Livejournal. I really should change that.

Went to Farmington Hills to see Drew Barrymore today. Stood in line for a long time, didn't get to meet her or anything. Took pictures, though. Watching the trailer for "Whip It" and overhearing all the stories from the derby girls reminded me how much I miss it.

Elaine and I are going to try and volunteer to do stats or some such for the Detroit Derby Girls this season. And get season passes, if they aren't too horribly expensive.

I've been having a serious case of hermitism lately... hardly ever going out to the club, hardly ever texting or calling people, almost never actually hanging out with anyone. I'm not really sure why. I don't think I'm depressed or anything... I mean, if I am, it's not the sort that I'm used to. Being in public just makes me feel anxious. I'm losing friends because I suck so much at keeping in touch, and I hate that. It's not that I don't want to talk to people... I just feel like I never have anything interesting to contribute.

I miss feeling like I'm actually participating in and experiencing life, rather than just floating along. I'm going to school now, so that helps, but I miss the adventures I used to have with my eclectic and numerous different groups of friends. I go back to those places now, though, and things just feel awkward. Maybe it's just me. There are all of these things I want to do and people I want to see, but the motivation is never there. I always worry about it and think too much and never end up doing it. Blah, rambling now.

Anyhow, I think Elaine and I are going to the Dally tomorrow. Possibly seeing Ashes up there, which would be nice. As for the rest of the weekend, no idea. There's a travel team pre-game on Sunday for $5, not sure on the details, we might end up doing that. I just feel like I need a change of pace and some good conversation. And to get out of the house. I think I'm just driving myself stir-crazy.
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From:flamingsword
Date:September 14th, 2009 02:34 am (UTC)
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If you are on facebook more regularly, I'll have to find you there. More Jessie would not be a bad thing, I think.